If one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours. He will put some things behind, will pass an invisible boundary; new, universal, and more liberal laws will begin to establish themselves around and within him; or the old laws be expanded, and interpreted in his favor in a more liberal sense, and he will live with the license of a higher order of beings. In proportion as he simplifies his life, the laws of the universe will appear less complex, and solitude will not be solitude, nor poverty poverty, nor weakness weakness. If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. Now put the foundations under them.
– Henry David Thoreau
In May 2003 I started the original Nest of Ninnies site, writing, “Sara Moulton – Why would anyone do that to a happy little green bean? I haven’t been so amused with The Food Network since I was first introduced to the Two Fat Ladies.” My thoughts are no less random now, but my life is much more sorted.
The original site documented the time of my life when going out became the point; it is a chronicle of one 24 year-old gay fella’s existence in Boston as a partier, a writer, a flamboyant caricature, and possibly a “mean girl.” It was perhaps the most amusing, fun period of my life so far, but it wasn’t rewarding. I was a lost little boy having too much fun to notice the danger that awaited – Hansel in the house of cake & candy.
Now I am keeping a journal of my life in sobriety & my life as a student in the Hunter College Master of Social Work program in New York City. It tracks some of my happenings, is the home to my Step work, and a spot for my exploration of the random philosophical ponderings that float through my open view.
Nest of Ninnies is where I can consider my past, present, and future; where I can keep for myself a chronicle of a life so very different from that I was living a decade ago.